Yes, I'm officially over-the-hill... I turned the big 4-0 a few days back and wasn't expecting many changes. I was right, of course, since I didn't feel magically wiser and more mature when the clock struck 12. I was the same ol' me....but then again, age has its way of creeping on you. I am definitely an entirely different being from the person that I was 20 years back. For crying out loud, my major worries then included getting out of the office in time to make it to the shuttle and to find a cute blouse to wear for the next movie night with my boyfriend. These types of things didn't seem too shallow then and were direct sources of stress at that time. Who would've known that in another 20 years, I would be worrying more about being able to manage shuttling my 3 boys to their various activities (this is of course on top of my own daily errands), being a single-parent to these boys when their dad was slaving away on one of his many business trips (too often, I must say, but he has been commendably hard-working to provide for the family), managing the family budget and so much more?
The years have been good to me though and I have slowly inched my way into responsible adulthood. No drastic metamorposis for me, but a gentle layering of wisdom, courage, selflessness and acceptance brought about by my everyday experiences. There have been a few trials along the way but with all the wonderful things I've been blessed with, I just feel like the luckiest 40-year old in the world.
Of course, I don't expect the rest of my years to be easy, since the first half was far from that. I do know though that whatever comes my way, I'll be able to face it head-on, my head held high with a courage only one who has gone over-the-hill could have.
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